Awareness

Not enough.
Never enough.
Always there to tell me so
Tell me what I would do if only I was true.
But gotta take it with a smile.
That's what is expected.
After all - there were terrible trials endured,
Unimaginable fires survived
Leaving invisible scars on the psyche
Extreme reactions are to be understood
Allowed.
This I should not forget
For time and memorial I should not forget
I never did, each word, each photo
Chosen with the greatest of care
Reaching past, around, through,
All the delicate threads of reason
Barely connecting the pieces of a mind
So delicate.
I twisted and turned and bent,
'Til I felt only pain. 
Strained,
So drained,
From the effort to refrain from respectful expression
Of my own thoughts
In deference to the supposed pain of another
Denied freedom for fear of cracking, crushing
Crumbling a soul
But
Its NOT enough, never enough, love for some.
Nothing is ever enough
And they are always there to let you know
That they were always kind
Well kindness isn't so very
When it dangles above your head like a blade
Sharpened to a razors egde
Ready to slice to the bone
For any perceived offense
Abused, used and refused
Character is in question